Straight through my heart, a single bullet got me

I need help. I feel like a thirteen-year-old. And that's somewhat pathetic, even for me. I have a huge crush on someone. Seriously. It's been a while since the last time. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that it's been a while since I've met new people. Now I have.

We were on this school trip on the Canary Islands (!!). Anyhow, I don't want to brag about the trip since all my friends are bitter about it, and I don't want to annoy people by telling what an amazing trip we had! So, there were ten people from our shool and ten from this other one: nine guys and one girl. And I can tell you the week there was one the best ones ever.

Sadly, it was only after the trip that I started to realise how wonderful this one guy was. But he lives 400 kilometres (around 250 miles) away. You know the feeling when you're sitting in front of your computer every night waiting for him to come online? Well, I suppose girls do. At least. Pathetic, yeah, tell me about it. I'm almost eighteen and I act like a thirteen-year-old teenager giggling everytime a guy walks past. Alright, maybe not that bad, but still.
I can't wait for the weekend when four of them come visit us. I've been dreaming every single possible incident that could happen while they're here. As if any of those would happen. But still. It's actually a somewhat nice feeling, having a crush on someone. Yeah, it might be silly, but it brightens up your day. So I'd say it's actually quite healthy. Haha. Really.

And the title: Backstreet Boys - Straight Through My Heart. And I don't care what you think about them. Cause they're the best! There's just something about the Backstreet Boys I've always liked.

P.S. It snowed yesterday! Just a little but it did! And yes, I am waiting for Christmas.

Look at you tonight, so beautiful under these neon lights

Questions... I'm bored.

If you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be?
Ahh, I really don't know. No, I do. As lame as it sounds I'd switch houses with Hannah Montana anytime. I love the house!

What's the longest you've gone without sleep?
I can't say exactly, little over 24 hours I'd guess.

What's the habit you're proudest of breaking?
Not stressing about school anymore. I'm so proud I've managed to get my mind in state that I don't care anymore. And it doesn't mean my grades are any worse than before.

What's your favorite website?
Again, as lame as it is, I have to go with Facebook. I don't use it that much and never talk to anyone there and it never works properly but still.

What's the best bargain you've ever found at a garage sale or thrift store?
A few times I've found shirts with original price of 30 € for 5 €. I'd say those.

Where were you on September 11, 2001?
At school. I was only seven at the time and I remember my dad coming home and switching on TV saying I heard this from the radio. I didn't exactly get it at the time and it didn't really affect me in any way.

If you had to be named after one of the 50 states, which would it be?
Texas. It sounds so cool.

If you could travel anywhere in Africa, where would it be?
Anywhere. I'd like to go to South Africa.

Have you ever been stung by a bee?
No, actually I haven't. Lucky me.

What's your favorite form of exercise?
Varies from time to time. When I haven't done something in a while it feels good but soon I'll get bored again.

Are you afaid of heights?
I used to be, but I'm over it. Not completely, but I'm not that afraid anymore.

Have you ever taken dance lessons?
I've done folk dancing. Haha. But it was actually quite fun. The team spirit is really great.

If you could go to Disney World with any celebrity alive today, who would it be?
Aah, I don't know. Taylor Lautner.

Do you prefer baths or showers?
People don't really bathe here. So yeah, showers.

What's your favorite breakfast food?
Pretty much anything goes.

If you could have a super power, what would it be?
I've been wondering this from time to time. It's really hard to decide. But I've ended up that if magic counts as a super power that'd be it, as you can do pretty much anything with it. But if not, then I'd have to probably say teleporting.

Name five songs to which you know all the lyrics. (Better yet, sing them.)
There are many. I have a good memory.

What's the longest you've ever waited in line?
For around a few hours, like in amusement parks.

Have you ever taken a picture in one of those little booths?
No I haven't. I really, really want to though.

What does your name mean?
Means "wisdom" in Greek, according to this.
Uses "both eyes to see" the world and a wifey type that can make a man satisfied. Cook good, look good and feels good, according to the Urban Dictionary. So yeah.

How old are you? How old do you wish you were and why?
17. I want to be 18 so I could do more stuff. Wouldn't always have to miss everything for not being of age.

Where are you now?
On the computer, surprise surprise.

Do you like it where you live?
Yes, in fact I do.

What is your natural hair color?
Blonde.

What color is it now?
Slightly blonder due to the sun. Haven't dyed it.

If you could have any color of hair in the world, what would it be?
Red. I love naturally red hair.

Biggest crush ever?
Well certain occasions. I remember once, five years ago I had this huge crush on a guy three years older than me. I used to stalk him in school to use every chance I had to get near him. Now I just laugh at it. I was so young and stupid. Haha. But I've had crushes, some of them have lasted for a long time.

Are you teacher's pet?
No. I'm good at school (I'm not bragging but I'm not going to pretend I'm not) but I never participate in class or anything. So I'd say no.

Are you popular?
Not really. I don't know anyone who's actually popular.

How would you describe yourself?
Difficult. I'm a dreamer but never do anything to achieve my dreams. I'm a romantic but not on the outside. I just dream about romantic dates and so but in reality I don't know if I'd really enjoy them. I want to be cooperative but in fact I just want to do things my way. I want to be independent but I always ask for advice. And I'm not going to continue, I suppose you got the point.

Are you shy?
Sort of yes but no. Like I said, I'm complicated.

Are you paranoid?
Yes? And no.

Do you like to party?
Not really.

Do you like to be alone?
Yup, I enjoy spending time all by myself. Really. No irony there.

Do you believe in God? Anything else?
Nope. But I like to believe there's a bigger power guiding us, and everything happens for a reason. Classic, I know, but it's true.

Yet another random pic but I love sunflowers. They're pretty.

And the title: Matthew Morrison - Summer Rain.

This is what dreams are made of

Thought it'd be about time to continue my challenge.

Day 11 – Your dreams

Well, to be honest there are many. Shallow ones and less shallow ones. Right now my biggest dream is traveling. I want to travel around the world and see all the different places. I know, not so unique, but it is what I dream about. A year backpacking abroad – yes please!

I have decided (well, decided and decided, but strongly committed to anyway) to go to an InterRail next year. I've been reading all these books and everything, and it's something I could actually afford. I mean, if I won in the lottery or so I'd take a gap year and take a round-the-world trip. For sure.

So traveling is pretty much the be-all and end-all (just learned that today and had to use it here) for me. And I am going on an InterRail next year after school's over.

Apart from traveling there are many other things I dream about. I want to have a summer romance, be in a proper relationship, get an own computer, find something I want to study when I go to university, turn 18 and drive a car, find a lovely apartment (and preferably a cheap one), get a good job, travel (again), study a year abroad as an exchange student (in university), visit the South Pole, visit Africa, have a family, live in a beautiful place near the city...

The list is endless, and I'm going to kill you if I'd start listing everything up. There are so many things I'd want to do (probably the same with everyone). Some of my dreams are shallow and silly and just dreams and fantasies that are fun to play with (such as meeting Taylor Lautner near my house and become friends (or more) with him and then he'd buy all this stuff for me and pay for an extreme makeover (or not so extreme, but well you know) and clothes and tips how to do this and that to look better (in an easy way)). Then some of them are not so shallow as I really want to fulfill them. Like the traveling part. It's number one on my list.

Places I'd really like to visit some day:

• South Africa, and then maybe some other African countries, to see what living there is actually like
• Egypt, to see the pyramids
• Greece to see the temples and other things
• Southern France
• UK and Ireland, Scotland (Loch Ness!), London
• Spain and Portugal as I never been there and really want to go
• Australia and New Zealand, the Great Barrier Reef and the Pacific islands
• South Pole
• Niagara Falls, Grand Canyon, New Work, Los Angeles (Hollywood!), Las Vegas, Yellowstone, .......... (I want to take a road trip across the States and visit like all of the states (Texas!))
• Tokyo, India (Taj Mahal), China (Beijing and the Great Wall)
• South American rainforests, Brazil, Mexico

So, there are a few.

Sorry about the title. But I just had to. And the song reminds of my childhood. So forgive me.

Hilary Duff - What Dreams Are Made Of

If time was still the sun would never find us

It's time to change.
Welcome to my new, improved blog. Published by me, Sophia.
In the future I'll be telling more about myself. No more secrets.

Enjoy.

P.S. Jonas Brothers - Fly With Me

I’m no beauty queen, I’m just beautiful me

Hey people. It's been a while. Again.

Recently I've occasionally felt really empty. One of the reasons is that everyone – and I mean everyone – is turning eighteen. And, well, guess twice who is not. I hate being born in the end of the year. Imagine being born between Christmas and New Year. Most people are born between New Year and Christmas. Well, I'm not.

I've been trying to prepare myself to this year for a long time. This is the year when everyone in my class, most of my friends, everyone is turning eighteen. It's not like I'm one of those people who like to get drunk and wasted, but still. I want to drive a car, don't want to read from every single job ad that we want our workers to be over eighteen. Screw regulations.

I just feel like I'm missing out of something. Everyone else is getting their driving licenses. I'm not. Everyone else is going to a club just enjoy and have fun because they're allowed to go there. I'm not. I mean, how am I different to the others? Why can't the regulations be like everyone born this year or something. That everyone born in 1993 would get the rights to do things at the same time. I'm just as mature as other people in my class. So why can't I drive?

It just really, really bugs me. It doesn't feel fair. I feel like a kid with everyone else. They don't have to ask for rides everywhere. They can go to the supermarket and buy a beer if they feel like it. It's just not fair.

Besides, I feel like my life is so lame anyways. I never do anything, don't go out with my friends. Maybe because I can't because I'm NOT eighteen. I still have to wait, what, eight months and five days. I feel like my life doesn't have a purpose right now. It's just basic school stuff. Graduation is next year, then I want to move to a place of my own and start living my own life. Right now I feel like my parents guard everything I do. On summer though I have at least a week that I can stay home alone, I want to do something wild. To feel alive.

Another thing might be the fact that I just watched the movie Never Been Kissed. It reminded me so much of myself. I've never had a boyfriend or a relationship and never kissed anyone. I'm not bullied or anything but still. I'm seventeen. Sometimes I feel like I want my life to change. Something new to happen.

But enough of angst now. It's spring and the weather's absolutely beautiful. It's all these stupid movies in which everything is possible and miracles happen and everything that make my life feel so worthless. Guess miracles don't happen in real life. Anyhow, this post sounds much more depressing than I mean. I just can't do anything without exaggeration.

So, to sum up, I am pretty happy with my life. And the title: Selena Gomez & The Scene - Who Says



I love it. The lyrics speak to me. Not in the way that someone's mean to me and bullies me, but in the way that you make your life perfect if you want it to be so. And I love the video.

I wouldn't want to be anybody else.
I’m no beauty queen, I’m just beautiful me.
You’ve got every right to a beautiful life.
Who says you’re not perfect, who says you’re not worth it?
Who says you’re not pretty, who says you’re not beautiful?

Here's a couple of pictures (weheartit.com) that I felt like sharing.

P.S. I. Want. To. Travel.

Welcome to the family

Day 08 – Your siblings

Well, my siblings. I don't know whether there's too much to say about them. But I'll try.

I have a younger brother. He's two years younger than me, quite a macho. He's one of those guys who's actually really sweet and nice and caring, but has to act tough for his friends. I get very easily annoyed by everything he does, surprise surprise. But he's very nice, when he hasn't seen his friends in a few weeks.

I also have a sister, six years younger. There's quite a big age difference, but we're starting to get along now that she's not that much of a child anymore. And don't get me wrong, she is a child, but you know, she's becoming a teenager and so. And, well, she's nice enough too.

I wouldn't say my siblings are special in any way. I love them, as you love your family. Neither of them is too special for me, but they're still important. And I must say, I'm the kind of older sister who wants to act like their mom whenever the real one isn't around. I worry about them and am slightly protective. But no can do.

And the title: Avenged Sevenfold - Welcome To The Family.

P.S. I don't even like Avenged Sevenfold. But the title just fit good enough.

You may say that I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one

Day 03 - 25 random facts about you and your friends

1. I'm an incurable romantic. I won't admit it to anyone I know, but I am. I love all love stories; even the worst romantic comedies.
2. I'm slightly perfectionist.
3. I want to cut my hair short.
4. I want to move to my own house.
5. I'm competitive.
6. I'm a lone wolf. I feel very comfortable by myself.
7. I actually like maths.
8. I want to go on an interrail. See the world. Like, take my room, I have seven posters on my walls: two from New York and a "paradise island", one from London, San Fransisco, Miami Beach and Paris.
9. I'm emotional, and I cry easily. I love laughing out loud at something stupid when I'm home alone. Just the other day I almost started crying when I was reading a magazine: there was an article about Emma Watson, and she said that the last shooting day of Harry Potter was very emotional and they cried. Sad, huh?
10. I wish I had guy friends. Not a boyfriend, but I love the idea of having a guy as a best friend.
11. I want a better singing voice. I used to be okay when I was younger, but not anymore. I still love singing though.
12. I want to shout at people when I'm annoyed.
13. I wish I cared less even though I don't really care.
14. I watch Hannah Montana.
15. I love Disney films in general. And Disney Channel. Though we don't have it. I also watch Wizards of Waverly Place.
16. I just watched High School Musical this morning. And yes, I am 17.
17. I don't like partying. Or dancing. I don't feel comfortable. I hate how everyone's all about getting drunk and dancing all night - so not me. I prefer a movie night with pizza and chocolate.
18. I dream of being a secret girlfriend of a celebrity. I'm just like that. Dream about everything.
19. The final six (6) facts will be about my friends.
20. S&S: They're both so nice and lovely. They're friends with everyone.
21. M: I love the way her eyes spark when she explains about something that is important to her. Or shares an opinion (unless it's against mine...)
22. A: She says when she's happy or proud. She draws, and when she's happy with her drawing she says it and doesn't go with oh well, it's just something I drew quickly
23. L: She's got such an realistic way of seeing life. She's not negative nor too positive.
24. U: I love how she has her own style and doesn't care what people say about her. There's just one word: prettyful.
25. L: Adorable. She's like me, we share the inner child -idea. With her I can do anything, and she doesn't judge.

Nothing else this time, I'm sorry.

The title: John Lennon - Imagine

I miss missing you

Hey guys. I came across with this challenge (or sort of a challenge, anyways) and thought it could be fun. It might take a while, but at least I won't be running out of subjects for the next 24 (at least) posts.

Day 01 – Introduce yourself

Day 02 – What you ate today

Day 03 – Your best friend

Day 04 – Your day

Day 05 – A moment

Day 06 – Your beliefs

Day 07 – What you wore today

Day 08 – Your siblings

Day 09 – What’s in your bag

Day 10 – This week

Day 11 – Your dreams

Day 12 – Your favorite memory

Day 13 – Your favorite birthday

Day 14 – Something you regret

Day 15 – This month

Day 16 – Another moment

Day 17 – Something that upsets you

Day 18 – Something that makes you feel better

Day 19 – Something that makes you cry

Day 20 – Your fears

Day 21 – Your favorite place

Day 22 – Something that you miss

Day 23 – Your aspirations

Day 24 – One last moment

And as it is the last day of holidays and school waiting tomorrow, I thought I might as well start today.

Day 01 - Introduce yourself

Okay, so I am a 17-year-old girl from... Haha, thought I was going to reveal it? Not quite yet. You can keep guessing. I have blond hair and green (or I think so) eyes. I'm about 170 centimetres (or around 5′6″, I suppose) tall. I use glasses. I have two younger siblings, a brother and a sister. I live in a row house, close to the city. I like the place.

I'm a complicated person. I'm kind of perfectionist, as much as it kills me to admit it. I want things to be done my way, as I - way too often - think it's the best. But don't get me wrong; I actually listen to others and cooperate with them. Often I have to ask people to tell their ideas, for example in school projects. Way too often people are just happy when someone says something. And I do, when I'm with people I know.
Getting to another thing. I'm not comfortable around big groups of people. In those cases I'm perfectly happy just hanging around and listening to others. It's completely opposite when in smaller groups; then I'm the one who's constantly talking and never shuts up.

I'm not one of these people who stand up for their thoughts or, well, anything. Still, I have (very) strong opinions, and quite a lot of them relate with fashion, looks and the whole society focusing on looks. I don't understand fashion. I don't know how to dress: my wardrobe consists of jeans and T-shirts, and a few hoodies. Okay, I might have a few other things, but hope you get the hang of it. I don't use jewellery, nor too much make-up (I'm perfectly happy with a mascara and a foundation. I'm not a tomboy, but I'm full of how women are told how they should look like, and normal, comfortable clothes mean that you don't try. I mean, what should I be trying??

I'm also quite, well, not independent, but somehow yes. I enjoy being alone, I don't need people around me 24/7. I don't actually want people around me 24/7. Whenever I'm home alone, I enjoy it, very rarely ask anyone to come over.
I'm like keeping things to myself. I don't like to share my dreams or such with people. Everything else, no problem. But personal things stay personal in my case.

Well, right now I can think of nothing else. I guess I'll just go upstairs and continue my Harry Potter and Deathly Hallows. For those of you who don't know, I had this project of reading the last three Harry Potters in English (I have read them before, but I didn't remember too much of them), with the translated copy in the other hand, and trying to learn good words or phrases and such. And I've actually learned, and I'm really happy about it!

Anyhow, this time the title has little to do with the text. It's just a song I hears when I was shopping with a friend of mine yesterday, and it's been stuck in my head since. So: The Saturdays - Missing You

Watch the world behind a window pane - that's not real to me

Ladies and gentlemen, happy new year 2011! Sophia is back from the dead. For good. For now, at least.

Anyhow, I had a wonderful Christmas in the Winter Wonderland (aka snow!!), and a fun New Year's Eve even though my friends were home. Quite a bit has been going on and I've been dying to write about everything, and now I finally found time. Been busy since I got back. So here we go.

Well, not much to tell from the trip to Winter Wonderland. Lots of snow and eating. That's that.
Yesterday I went to a world premiere of a movie. It wasn't as cool as it sounds, we had free tickets. So you can imagine. They gave and sold 6000 tickets all together. And the movie wasn't that good anyway.
But today was a different story. I went to see Love and Other Drugs. And I liked it. I think it was amazing how they described the disease and how, in the end, it doesn't matter. So I liked it. And to avoid going too deep analysing this, I have to mention that Jake Gyllenhaal is gorgeous. Too bad he's, what, 13 years older than me. Otherwise: yes please!

Anyhow, back to business. Writing about something that's been on my mind.
Like I wrote before, I was working before Christmas. So there was this guy who, I was sure, was an old neighbour of mine. They moved out like over five years ago. And don't take it wrong, he was this kind of a metal-music-fan -person, you could tell by the way he dressed, so not exactly my type. Then I saw this list with all the workers' names and I saw a familiar name there. But, typically, I didn't say anything. Not really my thing to go to strangers like that.

Anyhow, yesterday I had a friend request from him in Facebook yesterday. I wondered whether he had recognised me too, and accepted. Well today he started talking to me in Facebook-chat. It wasn't much, just a few words about how's life and what we study and where we live. Not much.
But I had a point in this story, and it comes here. Haven't you ever felt happy when you get a random friend request. Like that someone actually remembers you, and you're not just an empty face in the crowd. Like you matter. Not really too much, but it gives a nice feeling that you've been someone to someone. It only happens with these kind of "random" requests. Well that was pretty much it.

Another thing I've been thinking lately has actually been none other but life. Who I am and what do I think of my life and how I feel about it. It's a new year and a great opportunity to start something new, or even all over again. And I've been thinking about myself, what do I do or don't do, and what do these actions tell about me. And I thought I could share some of these things with you. These are totally random but don't laugh.

First, I'm actually not that much of a social person. Or I don't know. I enjoy being home alone and watching romantic comedies from TV or reading a book. I enjoy time alone, and I don't need much of friends' company. I don't understand why should I meet someone every day and do something. I talk with people in Facebook-chat very rarely. I have nothing to talk about with the people I see in school, because I've already talked with them earlier in school. I can't think of anything to talk about with these people I know and say hi to when I see them, but not much more. I don't comment things, I just like them. Lame, but I never know what to say. I have to think for a long time to figure out a good comment.

Which actually leads to the next point. I have realised, to my irritation, that I'm slightly perfectionist. I want people to see me funny and easy-going, though I actually have a weird sense of humour (which often includes these little comments and dissing (if you know what I mean), but not in a mean way) and I stress about the dummest things. But after all, that's me, and if someone's not okay with that, it's their loss. I have a bunch of good friends in school and outside. It takes time for me to trust people, and I want to feel comfortable around my friends. I want to be sure they actually want to be with me before I can completely relax. I don't know where that comes from. I still keep a lot of things to myself. I don't go sharing my secrets with people. I prefer keeping them to myself.

Third point I have here has also something to do with this myself-thing. I'm seriously not these hugging (and definitely not kissing!) people. I don't hug people. It's just not me. It doesn't mean that I don't care or I'm better than others, but hugging doesn't suit me. I mean, I hug someone if they hug me first, but otherwise... Nah.

But, as I couldn't figure out a good ending to this post, I'll just leave it open. Maybe I'll continue being deep (yes, in my standards this is deep) some other time. And the title. It reflects my feelings and thoughts right now. It makes you think. What you want from life. I can say that I don't want a husband and three children and a villa. I have no intentions getting married. And this doesn't mean I don't want someone to live with, but I prefer cohabitation. I'm not religious, at all, and I think marriage is, after all, a Christian ceremony. Not for me. I want children, two or three would be nice. I don't need a villa, I'd be perfectly happy with a row house, and paying rent. I want to live in the city. I have no idea what or where I want to study (okay, I have an idea: maths, physics or languages, maybe, and yes, I've been thinking of being a teacher). And this became an exceptionally long explanation of the title. So I'll stop now. (But listen to the lyrics!! And think for a while.)
Brian McFadden - Real To Me

P.S. Because it's now 2011, it's time to renew the design of this blog. Something new at least. Let's see what I come up with.
P.P.S. I came across with this picture. Check it out. I just thought it's amazing.

P.P.P.S. Growing old is inevitable. Growing up is optional.

I am not the kind of girl

Prepare. This is going to be long.

Three ways to win your heart?
A smile, a word, and food.

Last person you said "I hate you" to?
That'd be my brother.

Rain or sunshine?
In summer I can have both. Don't you just love running outside in your bikini when it's pouring?

Last stupid thing you said to anyone?
I say a lot of stupid things as I usually speak before I think.

Favourite movie?
Well there are a couple I like, including for example Love Actually (yes), 10 Things I Hate About You, The Day After Tomorrow and Armageddon.

Would you date someone who smokes?
No. I hate smoking. Not necessarily the people who smoke, but smoking. And the smell of it.

Would you have sex with someone you weren’t dating?
Nope. I need to completely trust someone before I can go that far.

If you could go on one date with any celebrity, who would it be?
Maybe Rupert Grint. He's a very talented actor and I'd like to meet him in person.

What’s your relationship status?
Single.

Hugger or kisser?
Don't really know. When it comes to friends I'm neither; I'm just not one of those who go around hugging nearly anyone. Not really my thing.

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
Well I wouldn't know about being in a relationship so I don't know, actually. But I'm happy single.

How important are looks?
It depends. I'm full of the modern society where it's all about looks. I hate how you're supposed to use make-up and dress like everybody else.

Would you rather date someone who was super-hot or someone who was nice?
In the end looks don't matter. Super-hot people can be total assholes.

Some random girl comes up to you and says “Who the hell are you?”. What do you say back?
Hi, my name is -. What's yours?

Are you spoiled?
No way.

Last person to see you cry?
Probably my mom or so.

Who/what made you cry?
Something. Maybe I was just tired.

Are most of your friends guys or girls?
Girls.

How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
Depends whether I have a bad-hair day or not?

What was the last thing you burnt?
My finger when I was taking a pizza out of the oven.

What color is the bra you have on now?
Beige.

Do you straighten your hair every day?
I kind of do almost every day.

Do you worry about the size of your boobs?
Sometimes, as they're not the biggest. But very rarely though.

Are you the typical girl who’s addicted to gossip?
Sort of yeah.

Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
Desperately yes.

Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
Of course. I'm the emotional kind.

Would you leave the house without makeup on?
Depends on where I'm going to. If I'm going running yes.

Are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle?
In the middle. I don't fancy jewellery, make-up or dresses, but occasionally I enjoy getting ready and dressing up.

What’s the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
That'd probably be my winter coat.

Do you wear sweat pants?
Yes, right now actually.

Do you know anyone who has lost their virginity?
Yes.

Have you ever ran into a door because you didn’t see it?
Who hasn't?

Do you like hugs and kisses?
Like I already said, nope. I'm not the type.

What did you want to be when you were growing up?
Well I've always kind of wanted to be a teacher. Though with both parents as teachers it's not the easiest dream.

Favorite non-sexual thing to do at night with a guy?
Sit at a campfire in a forest and talk.

When did you first start feeling older?
I haven't and I won't. I'm Peter Pan.

What do you hate about your school?
It's kinda ugly.

Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
Well if you count camps then yes.

Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Too much. Not the most creative writer so it's easier to just use a smiley instead of words.

Is your best friend pretty?
I don't have a best friend, but I think everyone's pretty in some way. I actually do, not just saying it.

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes.

Is your life simple or complicated?
Is anyone's life simple?

Are you easily confused?
Yep.

Are you taller than 5′4″?
Yes.

Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
It's all natural.

Does everything really happen for a reason?
Well I want to believe so.

Who were you with last night?
Myself.

What woke you up this morning?
An ache in the stomach.

Where are you?
Home.

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
Hopefully.

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
Well as it is ten in the morning, no.

Ever thrown up in public?
Not really.

Passed out because of alcohol?
No.

Where would you like to live?
I actually like the place I live, though if I had to decide... I can't say, I'd live everywhere. Almost at least.

What kind of house would you like?
Well I'm fine with a terraced house, or a detached house.

How often do you log in Facebook?
Too often.

Do you like candy necklaces?
Who doesn't?!?!?!?

Do you still go trick or treating?
I've never done that.

What was the last thing you ate?
A sandwich.

Are you a fast typer?
Sort of, I think.

What are you doing this weekend?
Chilling, watching TV, going shopping, meeting friends.

Have you ever moved?
A few times.

Have you ever won an award?
Yes. In sports and in school.

How many times have you eaten sushi?
Never, I've always wanted to try though!

What do you want to do right now?
Nothing.

Are you listening to music right now?
No.

Are you with someone right now?
No.

What's a word or phrase that you love?
I like the night. Without the dark, we'd never see the stars.

How long until your birthday?
11 days, yay!

What time is it now?
10.01. Early bird.

What makes you pissed off?
Hypocrisy.

Have you ever had a song written about you?
I don't think so.

What songs makes you happy?
Duran Duran - Hungry Like The Wolf. I don't know why. The tune's catchy.

What do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

Do you have a job?
Yes I do! And it's quite a nice little earner I can tell you.

What does your CD player have in it right now?
Taylor Swift's Speak Now. Not my own though, it's from the library.

Hair?
Has ADHD.

Piercings?
Nope. Not even earrings.

Tattoos?
Nope.

What taste is in your mouth?
Lemon tea.

Do you have a bad habit?
Chocolate. Way too much of it.

Is there a difference between the word 'best friend' and 'friend'?
To me there isn't really. I have good friends and friends.

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone?
Nope. It's been a while.

Who is your celebrity crush?
Rupert Grint.

Can you touch your toes?
Yes?

Is silence really golden?
Sometimes.

Are you afraid to grow up?
Yes.

What language do you want to learn?
Many!

Any upcoming vacations?
Christmas!!

Do you care what people think of you?
Depends. I embarrass myself easily, but I don't care what people I don't know think about me.

Would you call yourself smart?
I hate to say this but yes.

Do you like to read?
Yep.

Have you ever touched an elephant?
No.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
Brushing my teeth.

Name something you can't wait for?
This school trip and whether I'm on it or not.

What's your favorite season?
Summer and winter.

Have you ever ran with scissors?
Of course.

Most visited web page?
Facebook, I guess.

Coke or Pepsi?
Coke Light.

How many siblings do you have?
None, though I have two monkeys...

Do you have any pets?
If you count those two monkeys.

Do you know how to swim?
Yes.

Is good grammar attractive?
YES.

Are you jealous of one or more of your friends?
Yes. Not too seriously, though.

Have you known any of your friends your whole life?
No, as we moved here when I was 6. But I met a few people then and I'm still friends with them.

Are any of your friends taller than you?
Yes.

Do you currently like someone?
Actually not.

Do you think abortions are horrible?
No, if there's a reason.

You have plenty of secrets that you share with...?
I keep stuff to myself. I don't like sharing things.

What's in your wallet?
Cards.

What's under your bed?
Dust. Lots of dust.

What's on that way top shelf or in the very far back of your closet?
A forgotten T-shirt that's too small.

What's in your underwear drawer?
Underwear and my sisters Christmas present.

What's in the trunk of your car?
Don't have a cat.

What's in your desk or locker?
Books.

Do you have a super-secret hiding place and what's in it?
I do, but there's nothing in there right now.

What is the most embarassing thing in your room right now?
It's messy.

Have you done something recently you hope no one finds out about?
Yep.

What is your last thought before you fall asleep?
Wow I'm tired.

Do you sleep with anything?
Not anymore.

What do you wait until no one is looking to do?
Sing at the top of my lungs.

Have you told the truth in this survey?
Yes.

Is education important?
Yes.

Rather live in the country or in a city?
City, but a sort of small one.

Been to Disney World yet?
Euro Disney in Paris, if that counts?

Best music to listen to?
Taylor Swift.

Favorite food to eat?
Anything.

Want to say anything to anybody?
"Would you mind coming back down to Earth?"

You addicted to anything?
Chocolate.

Who's your idol?
Don't have any.

How many cities have you lived in?
Two.

Do you think you're friendly?
Yes. In a way.

What's the longest you have been stuck in a car?
Around 12 hours.

How do you feel about politics?
Not interested.

On a sunny day, your most likely doing what?
Being outside.

Are you comfortable with yourself?
Yes, most of the time.

Favorite type of movie to watch?
Romantic comedy.

Ever seen a weird bug and you didn't know what it was?
Yes.

What do you order at McDonald's?
A taxi to Burger King.

One word to describe you?
Complicated.

Well this was long.
Taylor Swift - Speak Now

Raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways

I was just wondering whether people have just somehow ended up here, or whether they actually read something I write. So, here's a challenge:

Comment. Or give me some kind of a clue that you read (or didn't read) it. Also, I'd be more than happy if you gave me ideas to write about.

I don't think I need to tell you but anyways: Pink - Raise Your Glass

EDIT: I just read about Taylor Swift's Speak Now World Tour 2011. But, surprise surprise, she won't be visiting my country. Passing by quite close but not close enough. Just my luck. I've really been looking forward to her concert here one day, but I guess I'll just have to wait. Why does everything have to happen in the US? It's just not fair. The rest of the world is here too, in case you haven't noticed.

But anyhow, better get going now. Maybe I'll drown my sorrow to a nice cup of hot chocolate and Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix which I've been reading recently. I've been having the translated book in other hand and looking up every single word that sounds interesting (and I've actually learned new words!). Thanks to this I've realised how stupid my language actually is: everything sounds so much better when in English. It's actually been quite illuminating. If you get what I mean.

Here's a few examples about, well, languages. It's Hakuna Matata. There's quite a lot of these, but it was too much fun listening to them. Try them. At least a few. Which one's worst? There's a poll in the end, go vote!

This first one goes for you in Denmark! Danish.


Arabic.


Bulgarian.


Czech.


Dutch.


English.


Finnish.


French.


German.


Greek.


Hungarian.


Italian.


Japanese.


Latin.


Mandarin-Chinese.


Polish.


Russian.


Spanish.


Swedish.

Which one sounds worst?

• Arabic
• Bulgarian
• Czech
• Danish
• Dutch
• English
• Finnish
• French
• German
• Greek
• Hungarian
• Italian
• Japanese
• Latin
• Mandarin-Chinese
• Polish
• Russian
• Spanish
• Swedish

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Who I am

Okay, now that I've given a little introduction about me through music, I maybe could tell something about myself. There's quite a lot more than you get from the lyrics.
I'll make a little list about who I am.

• slightly perfectionist (as much as I'd like to deny it, I have to admit that sometimes the little perfectionist inside me takes over)
• ambitious (connected with perfectionism, unfortunately)
• have strong opinions about, pretty much, everything (usually I'm not too serious, though, no matter how serious I sound!)
• I get annoyed (pretty) easily (no matter what the subject is, I have an opinion and there's something that bugs me. This will be an endless list, so I won't bother writing it here. You'll find out, sooner or later.)
• just a girl (I just had to put it here - after all I'm just me, hoping that there's people who'll understand me)

And please, don't get last one wrong, I'm not one of those girls who are bullied or anything, nor am I one of the invisible people. I do have friends and everything, my life isn't miserable, but I just feel like I need some place to shout out what I have in my mind. I'm not really one of those people who tell everything to their friends - I rather keep my things to myself. But these, as they're no exactly secrets, I'd like to share with more people that just my friends. But lets see how this will get going.

And just to let you know, I will be using lyrics as my post titles, and I will always tell the song they're from at the end of the post. Now,
Nick Jonas & The Administration - Who I Am

Inside my head there's a radio station

So, I will start my blogging with a little musical introduction. Here are some lyrics that have inspired me, or that mean something to me. Anyhow, don't take it too literally...
I have absolutely no idea if anyone can bother reading the whole list, but take a look at few at least, they'll hopefully give you some kind of a clue about who I am.

I'm gonna break your little heart, watch you take the fall, laughing all the way to the hospital, 'cause there's nothing surgery can do when I break your little heart in two.

All Time Low - Break Your Little Heart

It might sound slightly radical, but there's something in it.

There's a story at the bottom of this bottle and I'm the pen.

All Time Low - Dear Maria, Count Me In

I have absolutely no idea why this somehow clicks.

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go, some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end...

Backstreet Boys - Just Want You To Know

Makes you think...

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now...

B.o.B. feat. Hayley Williams - Airplanes

Yes, I know it's a big hit now, but the line... It has a lot of meaning, doesn't it?

It's my life, it's now or never, I ain't gonna live forever, I just want to live while I'm alive.

Bon Jovi - It's My Life

Exactly.

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman. All I need is time, a moment that is mine, while I'm in between.

Britney Spears - I'm Not A Girl, Not Yet A Woman

Yes, quite a cliché, but it really does help sometimes.

Near, far, wherever you are, I believe that the heart does go on.

Céline Dion - My Heart Will Go On

Another cliché, but can you say something against?

When I saw you I knew you were the one, I want to orbit you like you're the sun. -- I'm like a puzzle with a missing piece, I got a car but didn't get the keys...

Darin - Everything But The Girl

Gotta love the song!

Well, I never saw it coming, and I should've started running a long, long time ago.

Daughtry - Over You

Yet another line that I can't really explain.

Send it on, on and on, just one hand can heal another. Be a part, reach your heart, just one spark starts a fire.

DFFC - Send It On

Say whatever you wanna say, hate the singers or whatever, but the song is nice and the lyrics are meaningful.

Stay here tonight, 'cause when you're around me everything's right...

Enrique Iglesias - Stay Here Tonight

Once again, it just somehow clicks.

So walk a little slower and open up your eyes, sometimes its so hard to see the good things pass you by. There may never be a sign, no flashing neon light, telling you to make your move or when the time is right.

Hilary Duff - Why Not

Again, you may say whatever you want, but this song was really important once.

You're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful, it's true.

James Blunt - You're Beautiful

Once you think about this in the morning when you're having a bad hair day...

Worlds are spinning round, there's no time for slowing down, so won't you take a breath, just take a breath.

Jonas Brothers - Take A Breath

Don't judge the artist, please.

If time was still, the sun would never ever find us, we could light up the sky tonight. -- We're chasing stars to lose our shadow, Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine, so won't you fly with me...

Jonas Brothers - Fly With Me

Same as before. I just love this song.

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet, wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it, you know you can if you get the chance.
In your face as the door keeps slamming, now you're feeling more and more frustrated, and you're getting all kind of impatient waiting...
We live and we learn to take one step at a time, there's no need to rush, it's like learning to fly, or falling in love...

Jordin Sparks - One Step At A Time

Once again, a song about growing up. Wonder why they are so important?

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly, I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance, make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun, but I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change, and break away.

Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway

Speaking of which...

Highway to the danger zone, ride into the danger zone.

Kenny Loggins - Danger Zone

The song's amazing, and there's just - once again - something about it.

You sit there in your heartache, waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways...

The Killers - When You Were Young

Awesome song. Also, I just have to put it here, though the lyrics have no meaning for me:

The Killers - Mr. Brightside: Awesome song. Perfect when you're feeling a little down. It does cheer you up, try.

When my time comes forget the wrong that I've done, help me leave behind some reasons to be missed. Don't resent me and when you're feeling empty keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest...

Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest

Love the song, and beautiful lyrics, too.

I want someone to love me for who I am. I want someone to need me, is that so bad? I want someone to love me for who I am.

Nick Jonas & The Administration - Who I Am

Beautiful song, and love the lyrics and the video.

I'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly. It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep, 'cause everything is never as it seems...

Owl City - Fireflies

Again, I love the song. I have to say, I was really annoyed when it became such a big hit...

Oh, think twice, 'cause it's another day for you and me in paradise.

Phil Collins - Another Day In Paradise

Beautiful song, and it has a message. It makes you think, that no matter how crap life may seem, there's always people who'd be more than eager to switch places.

A thousand miles seems pretty far, but they've got planes and trains and cars, I'd walk to you if I had no other way.

Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah

What can I say?

I'm going down, I'll be coming back fighting, I may be scared and a little bit frightened, but I'll be back, I'll be coming back to life.

Scouting For Girls - This Ain't A Love Song

That's the way.

But hold your breath because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you, over again, don't make me change my mind, or I won't live to see another day, I swear it's true, because a girl like you is impossible to find.

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

Beautiful.

People are all the same and we only get judged by what we do, personality reflects name, and if I'm ugly then so are you.

Sugababes - Ugly

Once again, this used to be really important.

I'm just a girl trying to find a place in this world.

Taylor Swift - A Place In This World

This is, as you maybe noticed, or not, on the description of my blog at the top of this page. Taylor Swift and her music are really important to me, and I could put a line here from pretty much all of her songs. But I guess this one's enough, for now.

Here's a song for the one who stole my heart and ran so far that cupid couldn't catch her.

We The Kings - Heaven Can Wait

There you go.

And the heading:

Anna Abreu - Music Everywhere