I don't know what to say

This is going to be, for a change, a post in which I actually have something to say. Nothing important, but anyhow.

There's this one thing that has been annoying me lately. You know when people girls upload photos of them in Facebook (or wherever) and everyone always has to comment "omg you look se pretty<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3" and then they have to comment back "no i don't i look like shit you're the one who's pretty". That's actually two things.

Why do people always have to write the youaresopretty-comments to each other? I mean, yeah, when someone actually  has a nice photo you can comment if you have something to say. But I'd think it'd get sort of annoying when someone gets like a hundred comments to their picture from their friends. It's just so pretentious. People comment when they want to pretend to be "good" friends. Maybe not always but generally that's the case.

But what annoys me even more is the people who answer back that "no i don't you're just saying i'm ugly". Oh yeah right. If you think you look ugly in the picture then why the hell did you upload it. It's just so hypocrite. All they want is more people commenting that they're pretty. And that's when you end up with dozens of comments. All it'd take is a simple "thank you".

It's random, yeah, I know.

But enough of this. I started working today, was fun. There was this other girl too who started to day and she was even more lost than I was. Quite an achievement. But it was good to have someone else to be lost too so I didn't feel so stupid repeating the same questions over and over and over again. Besides the guy who was instructing us (and will be for the whole week) was good-looking. A few (or more) years older than us, I'd say maybe twenty-two (EDIT: He actually is twenty-two, he said that today) or something and probably gay. I don't know but you know he seemed to talk only to girls and dresses well and sounds like gay. I don't exactly know how you can define someone sounds gay but, well, he just sounds.

I work so you can get your pretty letters. Haha.

That's all for now I guess. My grandparents are staying over cause my parents are visiting St Petersburg. It's really sort of frustrating. Grandma is just stressing about everything and I can't go anywhere cause I have to help her here and to stuff with them and blah. And it's only been one day. Well, three more and then I'm as free as a bird and will have that two months of freedom I've been waiting for.

Now I'll head to bed, continue my book and eat some chocolate. I missed the Gossip Girl -episode today. Sniff. But the third season is off next week. I also consider starting to watch O.C. which I've never watched but the re-runs begin next week too.

But now I'm going. The title: Taylor Swift - The Story Of Us

P.S. They've started selling Starbucks chilled coffees over here. I've only had time to taste Seattle Latte. And I don't like coffee, but I liked it. Maybe I'm growing up. Haha.
EDIT: Now I've also tasted Aztlan Mocha Latte Chocolate Flavour. Not that good.

My other project over the summer is to taste all the Ben & Jerry's flavours we have here. The range is not nearly as big as on the other side but still. We have, what, 14 flavours according to the Finnish webpage, quite a bit smaller than your over 60 or so.

And can you believe we only got Vitaminwater here only this year? Not that I'm that interested on them. But still. Now I'm really going.

Don't say you love me

Aloha people!

I've been busy with school, having the last exams and summer holiday starting on Saturday. Can't wait.

I haven't really been up to much lately. Had this camp thing over the weekend, was pretty lame though. It's been raining quite a lot lately, but the weather's getting better now.

There's this one thing I've been meaning to post about for a long time, but for some reason never have. Have you people ever thought about "I love you" properly?

I've noticed, that it's much easier to say "I love you" in English than in Finnish. Even though I'd say my English is pretty fluent, things don't mean the same than they do with my mother tongue. Everything is so much less meaningful: swearing, expressing feelings. When speaking another language one easily exaggerates.

To me "I love you" is something really big and meaningful. I don't think I've ever said that to anyone. Maybe my mum when I was small. It's just not our thing to say it. In movies you hear people telling each other they love them all the time. The meaning has been lost. They say it to someone even though they don't even know the other person that well.

For me it'd take a long time before I'd have the courage to tell someone I loved them. I'd need to absolutely trust the other person and have a deep relationship before I'd be ready. "I love you" is not something to say to whoever. It's something really important, and I don't want it to lose its meaning.

There's one good example (or well, maybe not that good if you look at the whole story but let's just concentrate on this one detail) in Gossip Girl. You know on season two Chuck and Blair struggle saying "I love you" to each other. That's sort of the way it's supposed to be. "I love you" shouldn't be something you tell everyone. And I'm repeating myself.

But just think of it. Imagine saying "I love you" in English or whatever language you want and then in your mother tongue. There's a difference. At least to me. Your own language is much more meaningful. Try. I can repeat "I love you" much more easily than "Minä rakastan sinua". That's Finnish (for your information).

Anyhow, I gotta get going now. It's summer soon. Aloha!

The title: Boys Like Girls - Heart Heart Heartbreak

I'm living a teenage dream

I'm so excited! For a change. And there's a good reason. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part 1 is waiting for me. In the movies, tomorrow!

Okay, and don't get me wrong. I'm not one of those Harry Potter forever -fanatics. But I like it anyhow. I know this might sound like a cliché, but I've kinda grown up with Harry Potter. I got the first book when I was ten - at least I think so. Because I can remember waiting for my eleventh birthday when I always hoped that an owl would fly in and give me the letter. I mean, who didn't wait for that? Nobody just wants to admit it...
Anyway, by the time the sixth book came out I couldn't wait for the translated version and I read it in English. Same with the last one. So I guess in some way you could call me a fan, but I wouldn't say that. But there's something about it.

Another "teen"-phenomenon I like is, big surprise, Twilight. But it's a different story this time. I remember a friend of mine telling about the books a few years ago, and I thought they sounded (to be honest) crap. Apart from Harry Potter I've never been really into fantasy. So I payed no attention to it.
Then, when the movie become such a hit, I thought that maybe I could go watch it. Besides, another friend of mine was desperate of seeing it so I promised that I'd go with her. After the movie I was dumbfounded. It was actually good. So I borrowed the books from the first friend I told you about and read them, also the last one which wasn't out in my language yet. It came out like almost a year after the first movie.
So, I like Twilight. But not because it's a teen sensation or the actors are good-looking - no way. I'm one of those who actually don't find Robert Pattinson attractive. Taylor Lautner is another story... I like the story, and prefer the books. The movies are good too, though.

I find it sort of problematic that I resist the mass-teen-phenomenon Twilight has become, but I actually like it. It seems that if you like it, you're straight classified as a blond-wannabe-teen wearing Team Jacob -T-shirts. No way. (And as you want to know, I'm on Jacob's side and always been, before Taylor Lautner became so good-looking. I think it's sad that so many Team Edward -teens changed to Team Jacob when the second movie came out. And I know this makes me sound like one of them and I'm furious because bimbo-teens stole my opinion, but that's not the case. I'm just saying. I've never really been a vampire-fan.)
So I tell you, that I like Twilight. I'm not going to lie just because it's considered lame liking it. But I also think it's lame that you won't see the movies or read the books just because of the phenomenon. I mean if the story sounds interesting you might as well check it out, not stick with the I'm-not-a-teen -attitude. So what if you are?

But one thing bothers me more than anything. The fact that many of the fans are like twelve or thirteen. The youngest one I've seen was ten. I mean, if you're that age there's no way you can understand the books that well and really like the story. Then it's more about the phenomenon. And the last book is definitely not for so young girls. (Why not guys too, but I know no guy who'd be reading Twilight.)

But enough about Twilight for now. I should be studying, so this was my excuse for staying out of it. But as i have to face it anyway, it could as well be sooner as it could be later. Harry Potter tomorrow!
And the title: Katy Perry - Teenage Dream. Hope you noticed the sarcasm there.

People are people and sometimes we change our minds

So, getting to the proper posting now. This is why I started this blog in the first place... I'm writing about people today, certain kind of people. I don't know really how to call them, but I guess you'll figure it out.
Okay, so I really have to say that I hate people, who hate things just because they're popular. All like these "I don't want to see Twilight-movies because they're such mass teen stuff" or that "I hate all Disney stars because they're too... Disney". It really annoys me that people judge things without really getting to know them.
I have to admit, that I'm not a fan of mass teen things, either. But I've seen the Twilight movies and I'm not going to say I don't like them because they're teen stuff. I understand if you really don't like them, but opinions based on nothing... I just can't stand it.
And then there are these "I hate Justin Bieber he sounds like a girl" kind of people, and Facebook's full of groups such as "95 % of teens would freak out if Justin Bieber was about to jump off a bridge, like if you belong to the 5 % who'd eat popcorn, and shout 'Jump! Jump'". Like, okay, you don't like Justin Bieber, but is it really your problem if you think he sounds like a girl? I think he has a few nice songs, and I won't say I hate JB just because half of the world says Justin Bieber sucks.
And as opposed to that, there's people who just like something because everyone else does. I can't really think of an example right now, but well let's say that most of the world is going crazy about Lady Gaga's clothes. I think they're way too weird and you can't be exactly normal to wear something like that. And I'm not going to say they're lovely because they're fashionable. Who cares?

Nowadays people care way too much about what others think. I'm not one of those coolest girls in school, in fact, there isn't really one in our school. We have a great class, pretty much everyone's friends with each other even we're really different people. But no-one judges others, and I think that's great. I don't care about make up or don't really bother using too much time in the morning getting ready, and no-one looks at me like they'd be better people than I am. I wear my glasses, as I get a terrible head ache if I don't and I can't wear contacts, and no-one calls me lame. I do well in school and don't really care about partying and getting wasted, and no-one calls me nerdy. I suppose I'm quite lucky, but still... If you're not afraid to be who you are, people will respect you. If you show you're ashamed of yourself, you show others that it's okay to tell you you're not goo enough. That's just my opinion.

Speaking of which... I also get annoyed of these people, who take your opinions too personally. I mean, I might say I would never want to work as one of those people who call others trying to sell whatever magazines or so, but it doesn't mean someone else couldn't do it. That's like the only thing I never want to do, but it doesn't mean I'd hate all the people who do it. If someone wants to do that, go ahead, but don't come to me saying: "Oh, but if you can't get a job anywhere else, blaah, blaah, blaah." I. don't. care. It's not my problem, I don't have a job at all, and I'd rather be jobless than work as one of them.
I face similar incidents every day. I have strong opinions about many things, and it won't be easy to turn my head. But isn't it just good to have things to discuss about, life would be quite boring if we all agreed on everything.

And as I've done quite a bit of writing already, I guess I could still bring up one subject: hypocrisy. God I hate it more than anything. I have this one friend, as she's like the most hypocrite person in the whole world. At least it feels like it. She moved to the other side of the country last year, because she wanted to go this special school. And as you can guess, with a few teenagers living next door each other there's pretty much partying going on there. And I've been with her in a few, more or less, parties, anyhow people drinking. And she always says that it's okay if someone doesn't want to drink, no-one has to if they don't want to. Like me. But you can see from the way she acts that she loathes those people and their behaviour. Might sound like a pathetic example, but when a person builds up from hundreds of such things, it really gets to you.

But I'm getting tired now, so maybe I'll continue some other time.

Taylor Swift - Breathe

Who I am

Okay, now that I've given a little introduction about me through music, I maybe could tell something about myself. There's quite a lot more than you get from the lyrics.
I'll make a little list about who I am.

• slightly perfectionist (as much as I'd like to deny it, I have to admit that sometimes the little perfectionist inside me takes over)
• ambitious (connected with perfectionism, unfortunately)
• have strong opinions about, pretty much, everything (usually I'm not too serious, though, no matter how serious I sound!)
• I get annoyed (pretty) easily (no matter what the subject is, I have an opinion and there's something that bugs me. This will be an endless list, so I won't bother writing it here. You'll find out, sooner or later.)
• just a girl (I just had to put it here - after all I'm just me, hoping that there's people who'll understand me)

And please, don't get last one wrong, I'm not one of those girls who are bullied or anything, nor am I one of the invisible people. I do have friends and everything, my life isn't miserable, but I just feel like I need some place to shout out what I have in my mind. I'm not really one of those people who tell everything to their friends - I rather keep my things to myself. But these, as they're no exactly secrets, I'd like to share with more people that just my friends. But lets see how this will get going.

And just to let you know, I will be using lyrics as my post titles, and I will always tell the song they're from at the end of the post. Now,
Nick Jonas & The Administration - Who I Am