Don't say you love me

Aloha people!

I've been busy with school, having the last exams and summer holiday starting on Saturday. Can't wait.

I haven't really been up to much lately. Had this camp thing over the weekend, was pretty lame though. It's been raining quite a lot lately, but the weather's getting better now.

There's this one thing I've been meaning to post about for a long time, but for some reason never have. Have you people ever thought about "I love you" properly?

I've noticed, that it's much easier to say "I love you" in English than in Finnish. Even though I'd say my English is pretty fluent, things don't mean the same than they do with my mother tongue. Everything is so much less meaningful: swearing, expressing feelings. When speaking another language one easily exaggerates.

To me "I love you" is something really big and meaningful. I don't think I've ever said that to anyone. Maybe my mum when I was small. It's just not our thing to say it. In movies you hear people telling each other they love them all the time. The meaning has been lost. They say it to someone even though they don't even know the other person that well.

For me it'd take a long time before I'd have the courage to tell someone I loved them. I'd need to absolutely trust the other person and have a deep relationship before I'd be ready. "I love you" is not something to say to whoever. It's something really important, and I don't want it to lose its meaning.

There's one good example (or well, maybe not that good if you look at the whole story but let's just concentrate on this one detail) in Gossip Girl. You know on season two Chuck and Blair struggle saying "I love you" to each other. That's sort of the way it's supposed to be. "I love you" shouldn't be something you tell everyone. And I'm repeating myself.

But just think of it. Imagine saying "I love you" in English or whatever language you want and then in your mother tongue. There's a difference. At least to me. Your own language is much more meaningful. Try. I can repeat "I love you" much more easily than "Minä rakastan sinua". That's Finnish (for your information).

Anyhow, I gotta get going now. It's summer soon. Aloha!

The title: Boys Like Girls - Heart Heart Heartbreak

I’m no beauty queen, I’m just beautiful me

Hey people. It's been a while. Again.

Recently I've occasionally felt really empty. One of the reasons is that everyone – and I mean everyone – is turning eighteen. And, well, guess twice who is not. I hate being born in the end of the year. Imagine being born between Christmas and New Year. Most people are born between New Year and Christmas. Well, I'm not.

I've been trying to prepare myself to this year for a long time. This is the year when everyone in my class, most of my friends, everyone is turning eighteen. It's not like I'm one of those people who like to get drunk and wasted, but still. I want to drive a car, don't want to read from every single job ad that we want our workers to be over eighteen. Screw regulations.

I just feel like I'm missing out of something. Everyone else is getting their driving licenses. I'm not. Everyone else is going to a club just enjoy and have fun because they're allowed to go there. I'm not. I mean, how am I different to the others? Why can't the regulations be like everyone born this year or something. That everyone born in 1993 would get the rights to do things at the same time. I'm just as mature as other people in my class. So why can't I drive?

It just really, really bugs me. It doesn't feel fair. I feel like a kid with everyone else. They don't have to ask for rides everywhere. They can go to the supermarket and buy a beer if they feel like it. It's just not fair.

Besides, I feel like my life is so lame anyways. I never do anything, don't go out with my friends. Maybe because I can't because I'm NOT eighteen. I still have to wait, what, eight months and five days. I feel like my life doesn't have a purpose right now. It's just basic school stuff. Graduation is next year, then I want to move to a place of my own and start living my own life. Right now I feel like my parents guard everything I do. On summer though I have at least a week that I can stay home alone, I want to do something wild. To feel alive.

Another thing might be the fact that I just watched the movie Never Been Kissed. It reminded me so much of myself. I've never had a boyfriend or a relationship and never kissed anyone. I'm not bullied or anything but still. I'm seventeen. Sometimes I feel like I want my life to change. Something new to happen.

But enough of angst now. It's spring and the weather's absolutely beautiful. It's all these stupid movies in which everything is possible and miracles happen and everything that make my life feel so worthless. Guess miracles don't happen in real life. Anyhow, this post sounds much more depressing than I mean. I just can't do anything without exaggeration.

So, to sum up, I am pretty happy with my life. And the title: Selena Gomez & The Scene - Who Says



I love it. The lyrics speak to me. Not in the way that someone's mean to me and bullies me, but in the way that you make your life perfect if you want it to be so. And I love the video.

I wouldn't want to be anybody else.
I’m no beauty queen, I’m just beautiful me.
You’ve got every right to a beautiful life.
Who says you’re not perfect, who says you’re not worth it?
Who says you’re not pretty, who says you’re not beautiful?

Here's a couple of pictures (weheartit.com) that I felt like sharing.

P.S. I. Want. To. Travel.

I want someone to love me for who I am

This is really what I feel like right now. Dunno why. But the song's great and the lyrics are even greater. Didn't have much more to say. Enjoy.

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need me

Is that so bad?

I want someone to love me

For who I am

Nothing makes sense, 
nothing makes sense anymore

Nothing is right,
nothing is right when you're gone.

I'm losing my breath,
 I'm losing my right to be wrong

I'm frightened to death,
I'm frightened that I won't be strong

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need me

Is that so bad?

I wanna break all the madness

But it's all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I'm shaking it off,
I'm shaking off all of the pain.

You're breaking my heart,
breaking my heart once again

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need me

Is that so bad?

I wanna break all the madness

But it's all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need me

Is that so bad?

I wanna break all the madness

But it's all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

Yeah, who I am.

P.S. Thought there wasn't going to be a title post? There's always a title post. But this time: If you seriously didn't get the title, think again.

All my life I've been good but now I'm thinking: "What the hell"

Hello. It's been a while. I promise I'll try to be a little more active now that spring is coming and I can see the first signs of life...
Anyhow, I decided to continue with the challenge. Here you are, your welcome.

Day 06 – Your beliefs

Ah well. My beliefs. This, I must say, is a tough one. I had to really do quite a bit of investigation to make up even these ones. But, here we go.

I believe...

... that everything happens for a reason. I know it might sound classy or lame, but I really do. I don't believe there's any "bigger force" guiding us, but I do believe everything has a reason.

... that being yourself is the only way to happiness. Hypocrisy is worst. If you're really you, you'll find people who respect who you are.

... that modern "ideals" should be forgotten. Ideal looks, ideal style, ideal life, ideal this and that. As if we all should be made of the same form and we all should fulfil certain expectations. If one wants to be good at school and be successful, let them. If not, big deal.

... that everything is achievable if you really want it. Work for your dreams and you'll be rewarded.

... that being alone is one of the best things in the world. And no, I'm not saying people around you wouldn't be important. But really: some time alone every now and then is really good for you. You can do whatever you wish – dance, sing, scream or just watch TV or surf the net. Doesn't matter.

... that what the hell. All my life I've been good but now I'm thinking: "What the hell." All I want is to mess around. But honestly, I just need to be a little crazy. Seriously. This is so what I feel like right now. I want to do something crazy, just have fun and enjoy, and forget everything I should do.

So there are a few things. This whole belief-thing is such a broad topic that it's really hard to think of stuff. But yeah. And, unless you didn't realise, the title (and the stuff right there in the last "I believe"-part): Avril Lavigne - What The Hell. She's just awesome. Got some attitude.

Raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways

I was just wondering whether people have just somehow ended up here, or whether they actually read something I write. So, here's a challenge:

Comment. Or give me some kind of a clue that you read (or didn't read) it. Also, I'd be more than happy if you gave me ideas to write about.

I don't think I need to tell you but anyways: Pink - Raise Your Glass

EDIT: I just read about Taylor Swift's Speak Now World Tour 2011. But, surprise surprise, she won't be visiting my country. Passing by quite close but not close enough. Just my luck. I've really been looking forward to her concert here one day, but I guess I'll just have to wait. Why does everything have to happen in the US? It's just not fair. The rest of the world is here too, in case you haven't noticed.

But anyhow, better get going now. Maybe I'll drown my sorrow to a nice cup of hot chocolate and Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix which I've been reading recently. I've been having the translated book in other hand and looking up every single word that sounds interesting (and I've actually learned new words!). Thanks to this I've realised how stupid my language actually is: everything sounds so much better when in English. It's actually been quite illuminating. If you get what I mean.

Here's a few examples about, well, languages. It's Hakuna Matata. There's quite a lot of these, but it was too much fun listening to them. Try them. At least a few. Which one's worst? There's a poll in the end, go vote!

This first one goes for you in Denmark! Danish.


Arabic.


Bulgarian.


Czech.


Dutch.


English.


Finnish.


French.


German.


Greek.


Hungarian.


Italian.


Japanese.


Latin.


Mandarin-Chinese.


Polish.


Russian.


Spanish.


Swedish.

Which one sounds worst?

• Arabic
• Bulgarian
• Czech
• Danish
• Dutch
• English
• Finnish
• French
• German
• Greek
• Hungarian
• Italian
• Japanese
• Latin
• Mandarin-Chinese
• Polish
• Russian
• Spanish
• Swedish

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